Barb Smail

I have just had major foot surgery.  Two 3.5 inch screws, cadaver bone, and my own bone.  I expect a long recovery time with no weight bearing on that foot. 

Yesterday I got depressed.  I don't know what people do without the Lord to make sense of their lives because I was sad even with Him.  Dear friends from the church have been there to comfort me.  The freezer is full of yummy food.  But still I engaged in that awful self-pity.  Poor me.  I'm in a wheel chair.  I'm dependent on Harry for just about everything.  He has been a saint.  Self-doubt, loneliness, people pleasing, boredom, and SELF-PITY are destructive to well being.

But people from CFC have persevered in contacting me, just like family.  Caring, loving, uplifting, inspiring people have shown me God's Love.  For instance, Gaye Richardson called this morning and told me to replace the negative with the positive.  She said to cry out to God, that He knows.  She is sending me a word study on hope.  She quoted me Romans 15: 13 - "May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in Him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit." 

Gaye told me that we have the main thing.  We have Eternal Life.  She told me to put on the Full Armor of God and STAND!  So I am "standing" in a wheel chair.  Thanks everyone for prayer and care. 

Your Grateful Sister,